Monday, July 21, 2014

Saving those moments

You know those little moments, that come around every now and then? Like when you meet someone new for the very first time? Be it a future good friend or a new love interest? You can remember always how those little moments feel, when you get butterflies in your stomach, or you know that something is going to turn out good from a certain situation. What about those other moments? Those moments when you spend three quarters of your Thursdays pay and it's only Friday, and you think, "how am I going to stretch this milk out" for another 2 weeks? Or how about those times when you know you should be going for a walk because after you're done it makes you feel really good but you just can't seem to get yourself off the couch. If you just had the feeling when you came home and felt great, saved in a bottle somewhere so you could open it up when you are feeling like you didn't want to go so you could have a sniff of it or a taste of it and it would be enough to get those running shoes on, and get out that door. So many times in a month I can think about all of those little things that I want to buy, and when I get paid I can head right to the store and pick them up and not necessarily buy all of them so that I can make myself think I'm still saving some money, but at the end of the month when I'm no further ahead I can recall how I spent that cash that I didn't really have which should have been going towards saving for a house, or a trip but instead it's disguised as a new ring, or carton of ice cream in the freezer, or a pair of new craft scissors now in my craft room. You'd think after repeating things like this a few times, we might automatically know not to make such choices because we can remember the feelings that came after those decisions were made. We can instantly recall the feeling of how a heartache hurts and causes pain and many people avoid beginning new relationships, or are slow to take their walls down for the strong reason of that devastated feeling that goes along with the end of a highly treasured relationship. I totally would be all for some scientist to come up with a series of bottled feelings to put on the market. I think I would definitely have to purchase the "too much month at the end of the money" bottle, and the "go for a walk: you'll thank me later" bottle, to start. What kinds of bottled feelings would you like to buy?

Monday, April 21, 2014

What is my heart's desire?

Every morning and night I receive a notification on my phone from the Devotion App from the Play Store. I installed it quite a while back, because I want to feel connected and in touch with my faith throughout the day. Most of the time the devotionals are so deep that I don't even know the answer to the questions that are often included in them. Tonight's was from Psalm 37:4. It read, "take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart's desires". It ended with asking, "Do you know your big dream?"
So here I am a couple hours later still thinking about what that is. It was very clear that this dream was not to include material possessions.
I can't help but think about Dorothy, in the Wizard of Oz, when she woke up and her Aunt and Uncle and the farm hands were there and she said, "If I ever go looking for my heart's desire again, I won't look any further than my own back yard. Because if it isn't there, I never really lost it to begin with." If I may correct Miss Dorothy, she wasn't really looking for her heart's desire; she was running away so the mean old Elmira Gulch wouldn't realize that Toto had jumped out of her basket and ran back home. She had taken him in the first place because he had supposedly bit her but...oh nevermind, I'm optimistic that the majority of the earths population have seen the movie. Anyway, back to my heart's desire. So, if material things are out than one of my desires is I wish I could live forever, but that's impossible, and do I REALLY want to live forever? Picture me 200 years old. What am I going to be able to do anyway? Everyone I know would be passed away. I can see why that's not a possible thing. I'd love it if my dogs could live for a LONG time still, and be healthy and happy. Is this my final answer though. I think God would be expecting something deeper. I love my puppies more than anything, but if I'm taking proper care of them and loving them as much as possible, than I have faith that they will still be around for quite some time. So what really is my heart's desire? Am I supposed to know? Does everyone know theirs? Really, when it comes right down to it, doesn't everyone just want to be happy? Whether you are married or single, dating or alone, young or old, isn't happiness something everyone works for? Some people shop to fulfill a void of unhappiness, some people fill their lives with their favourite hobby or past-time because it makes them happy, and others spend all of their time surrounded by family and friends because they are happiest when being with others. I would have to say that being completely happy with whatever I have and wherever I am and whatever I'm doing would most likely be what my heart's desire really is. No matter where God has brought me or whatever he has given me to handle, all I would love to be is happy.
Now. What's your heart's desire?

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

I'll be in the beads!

Every time I go to Ikea, I always say to the person I'm with..."I'll be in the balls!" It looks like so much fun, but then reality sets in and I think "actually, I'll pass!" With all of the children in there comes flu, cold, and dirty germs, wet pants from accidents, and probably the occasional splash of vomit! Mmmm! Delightful!
As a jewellery maker I dream about being trapped inside a bead store and unable to get out, or going to the washroom one minutes before close and not making it out in time and they shut the store and everyone is gone...BUT ME! I even dream about being the owner of a Michaels andjust dancing around the aisles. Talk about a great craft room with amazing storage ;)
If I oowned a bead store I would make a bead pit where all of the loose beads were put into...well...a big pit and women and men could go in there and dive in the beads and lie in the beads but mainly pick out the beads they wanted while having some fun. It would only be open to adults who had no bladder or bowel control issues, and were screened for illnesses before going in and had to sanitize their hands first. Also if you were queasy or had just eaten a big meal there would be a wait period until you got the go ahead to enter.
Maybe one day I'll open up a store like that and have my family work there if they wish, especially @Lauren Smith or @Alina Smith and you can bet there will be a bead pit! The best part will be the free gift youll get if someone hears you say, "I'll be in the beads!"